Kindergarten Orientation.... Why am I crying?!
Over the past few weeks, like so many other parents, I have been taking my son to his orientation days for "big school". The first week I was so nervous for him but after watching him walk back straight and head high into the classroom my nerves evaporated. The second week his obvious excitement was contagious and I was smiling just as big as he was as he once again brimming with confidence headed off to class. By the third week he was a pro, knew it all and was pretty confident his plans for classroom domination were on track. As he walked away and shot me that cheeky little smile it knocked the wind out of me and brought with it the crushing realisation that I was in fact sending my LAST little guy off to big school. He won't be at home with me anymore, no more weekday coffee dates, craft mornings, bushwalks, swimming and picnics.
Just thinking about it has me wiping away tears.... but why? He is so ready to take on school and conquer the world. He is not scared or anxious or nervous at all, so why am I so heartbroken and fearful?. The truth is that over the past 5 years that little guy has somehow become my strength, my comfort, my safety blanket, my shield against the world and my little bestie. He has made sunshine on gloomy days, made me braver, laugh more and crave adventure. He has well and truly been my little side kick. Today i realised with a heavy heart that all this time i haven't been holding his hand, he has in fact been holding mine. ❤❤❤
And whilst it is scary, exciting and a little heartbreaking to let him go on to this next big stage I am going to selfishly cherish these last few weeks having a preschooler and find great pride in the fact that this crazy kid is more than ready to take on big school with his brothers!
THREE Burch boys all at once.... that school is not going to know what hit them!
